A few years ago, I shared these vulnerable reflections below. My health was in jeopardy, I was experiencing painful pancreatic attacks daily, and it was difficult to smile. So many folks are suffering with various hurts (physical and otherwise) in 2021 and don’t know what to do with their pain. So we’ll revisit the journey, and I’ll also share a peek at my summer in a video I made just for you. While I’ve grown over the years and my courage has increased, my faith in humanity and the eternal is often shaky at best. Our global crisis has ushered in a tough season for too many families around the world. I’m aware you are fighting a battle. I hope Peaceful French Country & Faithful Reflections reveals something new to you. If it doesn’t, please know I am grateful for your faithfulness in reading me.
Peaceful French Country & Faithful Reflections
Summer 2021: Peaceful Moments Mostly at Home
October 7, 2018: It’s a weary time for our divided country and culture as so many powerful shifts in consciousness, hierarchies, and values throw us off kilter and threaten to steal our joy.
No easy answers hide here within this sanctuary where I try to bring peace and inspiration.
How could there ever be answers when the friend typing these words is so deeply in love with: the questions, the Mystery, the heartful-ness, and the wisdom to humbly juggle so much paradox?
Surrendering to Mystery
Yesterday morning upon awakening, my soul felt shrouded in darkness. Was it residue from social media yesterday? Poor sleep? Random chemicals interacting in the brain? A God who moves as He pleases and works within the nights of souls?
I need not understand the precise mechanics of how or why blessed assurance departs.
If I could trust my medical team last week to anesthetize me and with scalpels and robots extract a digestive organ from my flesh WITHOUT MY UNDERSTANDING, AWARENESS, OR HELP IN THE MATTER, surely I can walk in faith on a dark day.
About the Darkness
My melancholy felt like cynicism, sadness, hopelessness, and negative self-talk of the variety:
“Is personal transformation even possible? Is higher consciousness born of Great Love and Fierce Grace truly attainable? We’re all so inconsistent and sucky at it…where are the models and mature ones to model for us with integrity how to transcend, how to make it stick?”
And also this.
“Why all the unhealed pain and stone throwing? Do people even care about preserving relationships anymore? There’s too much fear everywhere. Too many pointing fingers.”
We all have such days. Our emotions, moods, and energy levels dip low in stressful seasons.
Here’s the thing.
We are not those emotions. Not our moods. We are not our opinions, our thoughts, our darkness, our wounds, our disease, our income, our addiction, our occupation, our political party, our tax bracket, our religion, our good intentions, our reputation, our victimhood, our work ethic, our track record, our productivity, our title, or our past.
WE ARE BELOVED SOULS
The other day, I shared what has helped me forgive myself in my physical weakness (my painful condition has kept me irritable for weeks). Maybe this will help you too.
After my grey day yesterday, I was reminded of Henri Nouwen’s thoughts on identity and shifting moods:
“It is important to know that our emotional life is not the same as our spiritual life. Our spiritual life is the life of the Spirit of God within us. As we feel our emotions shift we must connect our spirits with the Spirit of God and remind ourselves that what we feel is not who we are. We are and remain, whatever our moods, God’s beloved children.” -Henri Nouwen
As I marinated in a mixture of hopelessness and cynicism – I began to respond to the angsty funk in a less reactive way. I began to look for the INVITATION from God as one of his beloved children.
An invitation…to surrender, to daily transform, to experience resistance as a force to prosper me, and primarily to SEE the path leading to deeper FAITHFULNESS.
When Light Comes
The invitation did not arise from sitting alone in despair, venting on the phone, or interacting online. It only became clear when my husband suggested a car ride into the countryside just before dusk.
We discovered new wide open spaces neither of us had ever seen, and as the sun set, he made space for me to safely lament.
It was his loving presence, nature, and relationship that helped me seek the grace to put on a new mind. The darkness did not budge, but the invitation shimmered like a full harvest moon in the night sky.
What a blessing that relationship so beautifully creates light where there was none! Light that feels so much like healing and wholemaking that I am convinced it IS indeed healing.
The invitation set before us is always there like the moon.
When I choose to seek it and respond, I can release my mind’s duality and need to judge, dissect, find meaning, or decide. I can let go of my body’s desire for restoration and comfort. And I can surrender my heart’s longing for emotional harmony.
Only then is my SPIRIT free to align with God (who is closer than breath and embedded in everything in this expanding universe including the beautiful moon).
To respond with my YES to the invitation to deepen is to be ushered into the warm embrace of what is True, Real, Everlasting, Timeless, Beautiful, Holy, Sacred, Eternal, and Mysterious.
With my whole heart, I am sending you the peacefulness of a soul whispering yes.
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I hope these images ease every weary thought and soften any hard edge.
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