It’s a weary time for our divided country and culture as so many powerful shifts in consciousness, hierarchies, and values may throw us off kilter or threaten to steal our joy. Maybe Peaceful French Country & Faithful Reflections can be a sort of small thing posted with great love.
No easy answers hide here within this sanctuary to nurture and point to an experience of peace and inspiration. How could there ever be answers when the friend typing these words is so deeply in love with: the questions, the Mystery, the heartfulness, and the wisdom to humbly hold all of the paradox?
Peaceful French Country & Faithful Reflections
Yesterday morning upon awakening, my soul felt shrouded in darkness. Was it residue from reading Facebook feeds yesterday? Poor quality of sleep? Random chemicals misbehaving in the brain? A God who moves as He pleases and works within the nights of souls?
I need not understand precise mechanics of how or why blessed assurance departs.
If I could trust my medical team last week to anesthetize me and with scalpels and robots extract a digestive organ from my flesh WITHOUT MY UNDERSTANDING, AWARENESS, OR HELP IN THE MATTER, surely I can practice faith on a dark day.
About the darkness.
It felt like cynicism, sadness, hopelessness, and negative self-talk of the variety:
“Is personal transformation even possible? Is higher consciousness born of Great Love and Fierce Grace truly attainable? We’re all so inconsistent and sucky at it…where are the models and mature ones to show us with integrity how to transcend, how to make it stick?”
And also this.
“Why all the unhealed pain and stone throwing? Do people even care about preserving relationships anymore? There’s too much fear everywhere. Too many pointing fingers.”
We all have such days. Our emotions, moods, and energy levels dip low in stressful seasons.
But here’s the thing.
We are not those emotions. We are not our moods. We are not our opinions, our thoughts, our darkness, our wounds, our disease, our income, our addiction, our occupation, our political party, our tax bracket, our religion, our good intentions, our reputation, our victimhood, our work ethic, our track record, our productivity, our title, or our past.
WE ARE BELOVED SOULS.
The other day, I shared what has been helping me forgive myself in my physical weakness (my condition has kept me irritable from pain for weeks). Maybe it will help you too. After my grey day yesterday, I was reminded of Henri Nouwen’s thoughts on identity and shifting moods:
“It is important to know that our emotional life is not the same as our spiritual life. Our spiritual life is the life of the Spirit of God within us. As we feel our emotions shift we must connect our spirits with the Spirit of God and remind ourselves that what we feel is not who we are.
We are and remain, whatever our moods, God’s beloved children.” -Henri Nouwen
As I marinated in a mixture of hopelessness and cynicism – I began to respond to my funk as an INVITATION as one of God’s children.
An invitation…to surrender, to daily transform, to experience resistance as a force to prosper me, and primarily to SEE the path leading to deeper FAITHFULNESS.
The invitation did not come from sitting alone in a funk, venting on the phone, or interacting online. My beloved whisked me away just before dusk for a long ride in the country to discover new terrain neither of us had ever seen. As the sun set, he made space for me to safely lament and share the unsavory, and it was his loving presence and time with me that illumined the invitation. The darkness did not budge, but the invitation shimmered like a full harvest moon in the night sky.
What a blessing that relationship so beautifully creates light where there was none, friends! Light that feels so much like healing and the beginnings of wholeness that I am moved to believe it IS indeed healing.
The invitation set before us is always there like the moon.
When I choose to seek it and answer it, I can then release my mind’s need to judge, find meaning, or decide. I can let go of my body’s desire for restored comfort. I can surrender my heart’s longing for emotional harmony. It’s then my SPIRIT is free to align with God (who is closer than breath and embedded in everything in this expanding universe including the beautiful moon).
To say YES is to be ushered into the warm embrace of what is True, Real, Everlasting, Timeless, Beautiful, Holy, Sacred, Eternal, and Mysterious.
With my whole heart, I am sending you the peacefulness of a soul whispering yes.