{Personal Reflections} Surfing, Surrender, and Soul

I just returned from the salon, and after listening to
myself ramble to my hairstylist about the turbulent ride
these last 10 weeks have been, I feel both spent and surprised
to have survived the dizzying twists and turns.

image result for white surfboard on shore beautiful Pacific ocean waves
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Home renovation.
Holidays & Hosting.

Know how I have been coping with life’s bumpy ride?
(No, no, not like a playa and not like a girlboss either…
even though playas and girlbosses are lovely.)

Like a surfer.

image result for surfers on shore Hawaii Pacific photo by Michele of Hello Lovely Studio
Photo: Michele –  Hello Lovely Studio

(I took the photo of these surfers at Pipeline,
a surfing competition on Oahu’s North Shore.
It’s my happy place.)

The Arizona Fixer Upper…a new Happy Place

When you reach a certain age, I think you are less surprised
when the roaring waves roll in..even the ones
gnarly enough to claim you.

Because you learn you can ride gnarly waves.
You can.

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Two words have become profoundly
significant on my surfing journey in the past year.
I learned them from a wise teacher.

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Relax and cooperate.

To do this demands a letting go, a surrender,
and a gentle opening of hands and soul.

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For many years, my small hands naturally
formed clenched fists whenever fear or anxiety surfaced.
I don’t think I viewed this response as unhealthy.
Just a harmless reaction, I thought.

image result for surfer surboard beach ocean rainbow
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It was only when I began to unfurl the fear from
these fingers in a vulnerable
and surrendered posture to receive,
that I began to awaken to a hidden wholeness.

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As I practiced upturning my palms–even shaky palms–
to the sky more often, I found that my capacity
to feel love and compassion was expanding.
Is this not a precious treasure to discover
in the second half of life!?!

There was indeed violence in my tightly held fists.
Directed inward.

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I am keenly aware I still resemble a
stay-at-home-gypsy wired for words
more than I do a wave-loving-surfer-sage.

But there is surfing going on over here
in the land-locked heartland, brah.

Also gratitude.

For waves, for transformation,
for the gift of awakening to new realms.

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Richard Rohr says if you don’t transform your pain,
you’ll transmit it, and I know he’s right.

In fact, pain can be recycled beautifully
if we allow it to have its way with us.

Kindness too!

So when I open these hands now, I let go.

Of attachments.
Of fear.
Of my need for approval and acceptance.

I let go of the old agenda,
and suddenly a new spaciousness
takes hold.

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It’s an ongoing endeavor, of course.
I keep falling asleep, keep clinging,
and keep forgetting to open my hands.
And I’ll never truly arrive, even with striving
(which is totally a relief if you ask me).

image result for row of colorful surfboards at surf shop
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But what might lie ahead with
metaphorical surfing practice, living out
two un-sexy words–relax and cooperate–
when the seas are stormy?

Do you suppose even bumpy roads
can somehow become a beautiful
deep blue ocean of waves?

Peace to you right where you are.




  1. January 15, 2017 / 12:16 pm

    It is as if you put into words what i have been trying to mentally manage Michele. These words are so effective with life spinning by at warp speed and with palms up, I thank you my dear friend.

    • January 15, 2017 / 7:06 pm

      thank you for reading and joining me, friend. xox

  2. January 15, 2017 / 4:30 pm

    "I am keenly aware I still resemble a
    stay-at-home-gypsy wired for words
    more than I do a wave-loving-surfer-sage."

    Me, too…

    • January 15, 2017 / 7:07 pm

      keep calm and surf on, sister. xox

  3. January 15, 2017 / 8:07 pm

    So beautifully said, Michelle! Surrender is a beautiful thing and leads to all sorts of blessings which you so gracefully demonstrate. Keep writing, my friend, I think it's what you were born to do!

    • January 16, 2017 / 8:16 pm

      hahaha. i'm writing as fast as i can and don't think i could write much more…have you ever googled my name, friend? hahahaha

  4. February 21, 2017 / 4:50 pm

    This was so beautiful and spoke to me so deeply. THANK YOU!

    • March 10, 2017 / 6:33 am

      thanks for the kindness, teresa. xox

  5. February 21, 2017 / 4:51 pm

    This really speaks to me. Thank you!

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