{Personal Reflections} She Used to Be Mine

Painting of Bella Luna by Cindy Austin.
Bella Luna

B e l l a   L u n a
was my constant companion
for nearly 14 years, and our hearts
are now broken and mournful
without her joy and love.

She passed away this week.

Catch us in happier times right here:

I’m sure at some point I will not
feel this raw and cracked open.

She is gone. Yet she will never be gone.

This is the sweet paradox I hold now
in place of her silky form…

Peace to us right where we are.

~michele

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25 Comments

  1. October 30, 2015 / 4:44 am

    Oh Michele.. I DO understand what you are feeling now. Our pets become a part of the family and they just don't live long enough 🙁 I am so sorry. This too will pass and time heals.

    xxL

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:47 am

      thanks so much, leslie.

  2. October 30, 2015 / 3:56 pm

    My shih tzu Noodles will be gone 5 years this Tuesday…he was 18… Kirby followed 2 years later…for me the most inexplicable feeling of pain…if anyone has so loved an animal they get it…I still cry when I think of them…but, fate brought me a precious rescue Milly and to have a dog back in our lives is a wonderful thing…we are grateful for them and they will always be a part of us… Xx cheryl

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:48 am

      so sorry for your loss, cheryl. thanks for understanding.

  3. October 31, 2015 / 5:10 am

    I am so, so sorry. I've lost one dog and I simply can't bear the thought of losing either one of the two best friend pups I have now—they are 11 and 12. It's inevitable of course but nothing prepares you for the sadness.

    Sending a big hug to you.

    Jane x

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:49 am

      thx for the hug, jane. i thought i had prepared, but you're right, the void is too wide.

  4. October 31, 2015 / 9:25 am

    Dear Michele,
    I am so very sorry for you! We lost our beloved dog Ralph 2 years ago and we still miss him so much. He was a part of our family. But we do not forget him and still feel his presence around us.
    I completely understand how you are feeling right now! Time heals my friend. Hugs to you. xxx

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:50 am

      i love hearing you still feel his presence, greet. even the sound of my stomach growling reminds me of my girl! so thankful for healing.

  5. October 31, 2015 / 11:50 am

    Michele soooo sorry to hear this…..heartbreaking to lose our best friends. There is nothing like the unconditional love and companionship our furry friends provide. Hope the memories you have of Bella will comfort you during this most difficult time..hugs.

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:51 am

      i appreciate it, tina. hugs to you.

  6. October 31, 2015 / 10:42 pm

    OH Michele, I so wish there were something I could truly do or say, I could not imagine this happening to our Pia, yet someday the reality will come. Your sweet fur baby knows all the love you gave, and the beautiful life lived.
    So here comforting your broken heart.

    Big hugs my dear.

    Xoxo
    Dore

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:51 am

      merci, dore. she will stay in my heart.

  7. November 2, 2015 / 1:18 am

    Michele, I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my little one about two months ago, she would have been 15 on Nov 4. I feel exactly the way you do. My heart is broken for the loss.

    My thoughts are with you and I hope you take a little comfort in knowing that your little one had a wonderful and very love filled life.

    Elizabeth

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:53 am

      sorry to hear about this, elizabeth. it's hard. thanks for your thoughtfulness.

  8. November 2, 2015 / 2:48 am

    It is never easy losing such a special member of your family. My heart goes out to you and hope that someday soon the sadness will lessen and you can smile with memories.
    Joan

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:54 am

      the heaviness is lifting, joan. thanks for thinkin of me.

  9. November 2, 2015 / 9:01 am

    So very sorry to hear this…… thinking of you ….
    big hugs and kisses,
    Alison 🙁

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:54 am

      thanks so much, alison.

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:54 am

      hug accepted. thx, julie.

  10. November 4, 2015 / 3:05 pm

    I thought about you now and came here to see how you're doing… I am so sorry to hear about Bella Luna. Following your blog for so many years, I know how much you loved her.

    Real love never fades away. and I know that she will always be in your heart.

    Luciane from HomeBunch.com

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:55 am

      you're a gem, luciane. she was so so loved.

  11. November 6, 2015 / 4:29 am

    Oh you sweet thing!! You have so much wisdom, I love how you remind us to have peace right where we are. You are a rock! Sending you lots of love and peace!

    -Des

    • November 6, 2015 / 4:55 am

      right where we are…in grief, in joy, in healing. thanks for reminding me who i am, des.

  12. November 6, 2015 / 6:01 am

    Oh this makes me ache. I am so so sorry to hear about the loss of your precious baby Bella Luna. I know your sadness, I've buried two of our fur babies and my heart broke each time. The only thing that made me feel better was knowing what a wonderful life we gave them. Years of being adored by boys and Man and spoiled endlessly by a Mama.I know Bella Luna had a similar life.
    hugs from across the states,
    xo
    Leslie

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